forgotten season

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 @ 3:45 AM

CHEM TEST=FAIL.
shit that, shit that, shit that.
tell you ppl ar, i think my life is going downhill.
it's like, i scared i'm becoming like a wazzatcalled? and invalid?:P
cuz like, i think i becuming like someone.
i hope not larhh.
like all of a sudden, i not 'man zu' with what i have larh.
like i feel suddenly, i damn dumb, then damn fugly, then like very left out liddat.
*sigh what is wrong with my life?
people see me as cheerful, that's my true self, but sometimes i hide the sickening feeling inside me by laffing and smiling loadss.
it's like i feel insecure in sku, and at home sometimes.
like sometimes the sickeningly dread feeling inside the pit of my stomach. i might seem i haf alot of ego, alot of self-esteem, alot of self-confidence, but hey, hu noes.
i feel insecure sometimes, like the whole world would side me one minute and leave me the next.
cuz i don't feel close enuff and secure enuff with anyone to make myself believe that that person is nvr leaving me.
alright, i will stop affecting people with this crap post.

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