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Why?
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 @ 12:41 AM

Why dont i understand physics?
Why are some people better off than others?
Why is this world so freaking unfair?
Why do people go after a certain type of person and deem that person nice?
Why cant we just decide to be who we want to be?
Why do we need to listen to certain people just cos they think they are higher up than us?
Why do i have so much problems in my life?
Why cant my life be freaking smooth?

I think god gave me nothing.
No brains, no looks, no gift in any area whatsoever, not rich, argh.
I have always believed in what my mom told me; that if god didn't bless you with any of the above, there will be another way in which god would've blessed you.
But i dont see what god have blessed me with yet.

Enough of rantings, you could probably tell that i'm freaking depressed right now.

Class was okay, yujun absent again!
Then sat with simone, talked alot about church (we came to the conclusion that we feel weird sitting at home at around 3 plus when we were supposed to go to church).
It's like, our saturdays afternoons became boring.
I'm contemplating going back to church, seriously, but then i would have to be in cell alone, cos i dont think peiling will be going back, and the only ones who wants to go back are from simone's cell. x.x (ahemahemahem!)
So yeah.
Lesons went on, it felt weird to be sitting inside sec one classroom.
Recess, chiong to find carrots, when it came to drawing lots all our hearts almost died.
Like, cos we all dont want tio.
In the end, left yijiao, cass, cherie, huiwen, bernice, yujun.
But they re-drew, final people were huiwen, bernice, tew.
First time i see my fries so upset!
Ohmygod i heartbreak cos my darling fries was sad. ):
I never saw her liddat before!
-sends hugs to fries-
I LOVE YOU JIAYING. (i know you love me toos. :D)
Ohmygod we should have mugging session soon!

Then, chinese.
Awesome period, but my heart died too.
Physics.
-MODE OF DEPRESSION-
Zzzzz failed my freaking test.
Then before that, when they say only 19 people pass, hoho was like, aiya, sure fail, cos he never do some question of what shitz.
Then me and sher bet with him, say he confirm pass, loser treats bubble tea. x]
Duh, obviously i'm the more smart one, i knew he would pass (please, it's hoho).
AND ME AND SHER HAVE BUBBLE TEA YAY.
I was like telling her, we should bet on pizza instead. ^-^

Psst: Damn ace learning. I have no idea how to do freaking surds.

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Green.
Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 3:08 AM

I'm.
Dying.

Life is, basically, unfair to me.
I CANT BELIEVE FANS ACTUALLY HAS THIS KIND OF ROOM.
Ohmygod i feel so inferior, i feel like smashing my head a thousand times on the wall and robbing a bank (because yes, apparently you need alot of money for that), and I WANT TO TURN BACK THE CLOCK.
Back a fregging 7 years, so i can be at the start with them, and i can own every awesome thing of theirs.
Ohmygod i'm dying.
This makes my point to study even harder (psychologist, here i come!).
But i'm just really scared that, i wont be able to collect all these stuff 10-15 years down the road.
I dont even know if they will still exist till then.
I wish i was born earlier.
I wish i was born rich.
I wish i was born with my own room.
I wish i could be born in south korea!

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Hopeless.
Friday, March 5, 2010 @ 1:24 AM

I was sooooo looking forward to gb tomo, can finally discuss with carrots about gathering, but apparently it seems to be cancelled cos we cant match our schedules, except for monday (we have chinese oral though).
And then, sports heats have to come and ruin it all.
I thought i not running sia, in the end got my name there.
Then very siasuay leh, if i run last then...
Aish.
And paranoid bout gb.
Will ma'am ask too much or something?
Oh god.
Paranoid-ded.
And a maths test 2 sucked.
Again.
I studied the whole of chapter 2 when we were only supposed to study 2.1 and 2.2.
Fregging waste of time, i'm pissed with myself.
Ugh, ever heard of friday blues?

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Even shame has a name.
Friday, February 19, 2010 @ 1:42 AM

I feel bad.
Downright bad.
I've been trying to work out an agreement with my parents (well, more like my mom) on seeing the juntwins.
Mom said yes at first, but dad was totally against it.
And then after convincing my mom more, she said okay, if i could find a sponsor.
And then, after even more convincing, she decided to let me go without telling my dad.
And she said my dad might be getting a part time job on weekends cos apparently, i spend too much money, and i think i'm spending alot, really.
And my parents suffer.
I dont think i'm thick-skinned enough to really go see the juntwins without telling my dad.
I think i'll just see how it goes.
If i go to my fourth aunt's house, i will get $50, like always.
I shall see when i'm goign back to msia then.
Till then, i shan't even dream, and even think, of seeing the juntwins.
I'm sorry dad, i'll study hard.

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Too stupid.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 4:04 AM

I realise that if i were to study a type of animals, the only bunch i wont ever be able to suss is humans.
Human feelings are way too complicated, and things change too fast; also, happiness is short-lived. (phrase that relates most to my life - FAVED BY ME)
And hence, i really dont understand everything going around me!
One minute, someone can just treat me like the only one they can rely on; suddenly, they just push me aside, like WOW.
But also, because i'm more of a happy-go-lucky, it doesn't really matter much, but it does distract me most of the times.
AND because of that, people get hurt. (because of misunderstandings between people)
AND also because of that, i misunderstand alot of people, and people misunderstand me too.
And so, i'm abruptly changing this into an apology post.
SORRY TO THOSE WHOM I'VE MISUNDERSTOOD, and mind you, this post is for girls only. (because i dont understand what i would misunderstand with a guy; if i dont like you, that's it, no matter how nice you are. TOO BAD. -.-)

Oh, today was a tiring day.
Dominique, get well soon! :D
And glad to hear your match went well today, hahaha. (:
Anyway, lessons were a breeze.
But mostly cos i might be daydreaming, that's why every lesson seems ohkay to me. ;x
HAHA. x]
And well, after school stayed back to do class deco, glad to know some of the guys stayed back too. (though they claim they were forced, haha!)
But ah well, everything went fine, except for when kimmeng almost fell off the chair on the table. (confusing, but people who were there would know, :S SCARY LEH.)
Then went home, and currently chionging CAP!
To lit students in my class, let's jiayou. :B

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Thinking of not giving.
Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 6:04 AM

Zzzz, currently turned off by this person whose such a jerk (though it's a girl).
Got thing, then talk to me, no thing, just ignore.
You really have abit of prob. -.-

Anyways, adding on to my bad mood is today, stupid saturday, 7 need wake up and chiong school for gb.
Then stand in hothot sun for 2 hours i think, for attire check.
Got damn alot casualties, including me. x.x
For the first time in my life i experienced dying, LOL.
Jokingjoking. :D
Near-faintness sucks lah, my world turned orangey-brown.
Like wth, i want die liao. x.x
Then i was like, ohkay, think of dbsk and you wont faint, then i hummed hug in my head, in the end, still cmi, couldn't breathe and felt nauseous, gross. x.x
Then anyway, bernice huiwen both sick today never come, abit suspicious. x]
Hee.
Anyways, ended early today, 12.45. -.-
Thay say 12.30 but confirm drag what. o-o

Anyway, went hougang point kfc with simone, cherie and cassandra, ate bbq meltz with cheese fries, it's damn yummy after freaking long gb. (:
Then, chiong home to bathe, bathe liao need chiong out of house to church, almost late. >\\\<
Then slept through church, at first alot energy, after that i died with peiling.
We were entertaining ourselves, i took her stylus and was typing msg on her phone, then she reply back and blah, we were both bored like wth.
5 MORE WEEKS. >.<

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THANKS PEILING. ♥
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 4:28 AM

And that's what i meant when i say carrots are more reliable. ♥
Anyway, after school, got on 112, and was praying like mad for peiling to get on same bus as me, (which we did anyway. :D).
Then atas was on bus too, she seemed in her own world with her earphones plugged is, which she always is, anyway. x] (dont kill me ber!)
Then we went hiking to gb hq, i think me and peiling almost cmi along the way with what our heavy freaking schoolbags and the fregging weather.
Then, when we reach, the sign says closed, and me and peiling were preparing to throw stones (we promised ourselves that if the hq refuses to open: joking!)
But just press one bell, and suddenly someone opens up the shop, hehe. x]
Then we buy haversack (peiling), cap (me), socks and tie pin (xinyu).
Finally someone owes me money LOL. o-o

Then went to heartland mall and slack, went to eat kfc snackers with her again (and somemore we always eat same choice, and take uber lots of chilli. :D).
Then went slack around, our bags are freaking heavy lah.
Then went hougang mall, heehee. ^-^
Went cotton on walkwalk, she decided not to buy the shirts for her friend, maybe another day haha.
AND I LOVE PEILING LAH. ♥ (hey peiling, must feel honoured! cos i dont say this to alot of people HAHA. :D plus she so patient always listen to me crap about my stupid *****. cos she seems to have the same reaction as me, just that i bobian, so i ren.)
SHE SO NICE PEI ME WALK AND BUY STUFF EVEN THOUGH IT'S NONE OF HER BUSINESS.<3

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Life really is unfair! But whocares. (:
Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 1:10 AM


Oh, mygod. VISUAL SHOCK JAE. ♥-♥

You might want to ignore my rants.
Ohmys, i'm now bored in school cos i have no one to talk to in class!
And because of that, i'm twice as hardworking, cos i dont talk and just pay attention, hee. x]
And hell, i have a feeling i cant fit in, AHHHHHH.
But heck that, i'm staying optimistic.
But not so optimistic bout lit, I REGRET NOT TAKING SS/HIST AND PURE GEOG.
Ahhhhh, from ytd i realised i love geog more than lit, and lit got some stupid caps programme that need do alotta writing, AND I WANT TO DIE. ):
T-T
Anyways, other than that, today was a good day.
Wilfred, please love your beanie!
Cos it's so fregging cute, heehee. :D
And tang!
That guy not quite my type, but he has a rather good smile! (i emphasize rather, haha)
Ohkay, going with peiling to hq tomo to buy my fregging gb cap and her haversack, and to buy tie pin for xinyu. x.x (please: these are just reminders for myself)
AND I'M GONNA BE BUSY FOR THE START OF THIS WEEK.
Gosh, heng i have some time left to spare on that project. (:
Haish, if not i die. >.<

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Sad, confused, heartbroken, collapsed world.
Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 10:55 PM

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Sometimes, just sometimes, the world ain't that fair.
Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 2:14 AM

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